Update on Life…
I haven’t had a chance to blog, in what feels like forever. Sorry that I haven’t been reading or commenting on any blogs.
Just thought I’d give a quick update on everything.
All I wanna do is sleep! Between work and everything else I have been just tired. I told my husband I feel like a giant spaghetti noodle. 
As most of you know my Gran see’s the specialist on July 1st. He will tell her what the options are and she will decide what she wants to do from there. I’m a bit worried. I’ve noticed her feet and ankles swelling and her breathing seems different. I asked her to tell her doctor but she won’t. She said she’ll see him on the !st and tell him then. I don’t agree with that, but I don’t know what to do. So, I made a few calls and my Mother and middle sister will be going to visit her tomorrow (if all goes as planned) and I hope they can convince her to go or at least call and tell them about the swelling.
She was given a Petalite Crystal last week so I am making a wire cage for it tonight. That way she can wear it on her chain necklace. Tomorrow she is going to a class on singing bowls for chakra’s. 86 years old in a few months and there is still no stopping her! Inside, I am so scared, but I don’t want to be a downer to her. So, I just pretend everything is great. She keeps saying it’s nothing and that even if she passes on, that she’ll be back. Conversations like that just don’t feel right. Sometimes reality hurts!
On another note, our garden looks like it is doing well. We ate the first of our treasures tonight. Radishes, fresh picked. They were so good. I’ll get some pictures up soon. My husband and middle sister are having a broccoli-off. None of us has grown broccoli before, and those two compete at everyting they do! So, now the competition is who grows the biggest, best, broccoli. We e-mailed her pictures the other day, but she still hasn’t told us how hers is doing. I guess we’ll have to take a trip up there and nose around! 
I bought 3 aloe vera plants and am going to try to make my own aloe juice instead of buying it. That way I’ll know exactly what I am drinking. I also bought a stevia plant since I read about this. (Monsanto and sugar)
That’s about all for now. I have company coming over this evening. I don’t mind company, it’s having to wear a bra all night that kills me! Isn’t that the first thing every woman whips off as soon as she gets home? 
Sorry you are so stressed. Your Gran really does have a good attitude. I hope to be that peaceful with the whole “whatever happens happens” attitude when I am her age. I try to be that way now, but I’m not so good at it.
And yeah, I never wear a bra at home either, unless there is company.
The vegetable contest sounds funny…can imagine the conversations about it.
It is so hard to convince people to go to the doctor ….sometimes people end up going just because their loved ones are worried. She does sound like she has a great attitude combined with a stubborn streak! Hope she stays well enough until she sees the specialist…although the specialist might say see your GP about the swelling etc as it might be high blood pressure or something else. In that case you can say told you so….gently!
One of the things I thought I would hate about getting older is wearing a bra…did not wear one through most of the seventies eighties and early nineties but now i feel more comfortable in one. Do not want to be spending the evening heaving the old boobs around..got other things to do.
Hope you have a good time with your “company”
lol at bra! yeah, i don’t wear mine at home either.
i particularly like t-shirts with large prints around the chest area for non-bra purposes. 
hope gran’s visit to the doctor will be optimistic. *cross fingers*
Hey, beadie! There are worse things to feel like than noodles!
Wow, singing bowls and chakras! Your gran is something else. I like singing bowls very much myself, actually. I use stevia sometimes, but I don’t grow my own; I use an extract. That’s an ambitious project; I’d like to know how you do with it.
I hope you are getting some rest!!! And, as always, I send good healing thoughts to you and Gran.
I’ve been thinking of growing some Stevia myself but don’t even know where to get the plants. But I’ll do it as soon as I find some.
I love your gran – she has a great attitude and zest for life. No matter what happens, nobody can say she wasted her time. And I will keep her in my thoughts and prayers, hoping that she has lots more time to spend with her loved ones.
As for the bra – I was always terrified to NOT wear one when I was younger because I thought that if I didn’t, that I would sag to my knees when I got older. I don’t know how that idea got in my head but it was customary for everyone to wear them when I was growing up anyway. These days, I do take it off early in the evenings when I’m home with just the hubby.
Sorry for taking so long to reply. My Gran slipped and fell last week, she’s okay. But they did some tests to make sure no bones were broken and no damage was done. They found something in her one lung. I don’t know if it’s cancer. Now they have to do more tests.
I’m not really shocked about this because I thought she wasn’t being completely upfront about the cancer and that it hadn’t spread. I told my family this when she said everything was fine. I just knew there was more to it.
Her first cat scan was only a few weeks ago and she said there was nothing in her lungs then. Either it spread very quickly or it was there all along and she didn’t tell us. I don’t know.
I had noticed her breathing was different the day I saw her swollen ankles and feet. Something wasn’t adding up.
A few days ago my eldest sister and I went to do some yard work at her house (she wasn’t home at the time) when she got back she phoned my sister and freaked. I guess when we mowed the ditch, we mowed some violets and in the back we pulled a flower she had for some time out of her garden. (Neither one of us are flower gardeners and I have a hard time telling a weed from a flower if they aren’t in bloom.) She was pretty angry and said she didn’t care whether her gardens were weeded or not and wouldn’t even speak to my sister after that. She must be pretty mad because I left her gem stone cages I made and she hasn’t even said thank you. She hasn’t spoken to us for 2 days now. Uh oh.
Hopefully she gets over it, we have another flower to replace the one we pulled, so I hope she lets us finish her garden at least.
Maybe she is just frustrated at the cancer and this the way she is dealing with it.
We were going to go over to her house tomorrow to discuss what happens next. She’ll need someone to take care of her after the surgery and maybe think of what to do next. There are a few options we are thinking about but I know she will just get upset. But we do have to think about her being cared for and stuff. I could quit work (for now) and have her stay here, but I know she would rather be home. We’ll have to work something out.
@ BirdPress: Thanks for your comment. I hope I have half her stamina and determination when I am her age! I try to be positive too, but like you, I struggle.
LOL! Bra’s they should be outlawed!
@ Majik: This garden competition is pretty fun. We are winning for now. I will have to get a few photo’s up soon.
My boobs don’t hang much because I was never blessed with big un’s. But I imagine if they were, I wear a bra all the time and just be miserable!
@ Sulz: Ahhhh…..a large print on a shirt. Now you’re thinking. Thanks!
@ Muse: I didn’t even know about singing bowls until she told me about her new class. Then I looked up on them. I’ll have to go to youtube and see if they have any ’songs’
You are right, there are way worse things to feel than like a noodle! And I have been taking little naps at night catching up on my sleep. I’m feeling less noodle like now that my body has had time to adjust to my schedule.
I re-potted the stevia and it hasn’t really done much this week. But I found some info on-line how to make the liquid form. I need a quarter cup of fresh leaves for each batch. So, it will be a while. I can’t wait to try it though! Thanks for your good thoughts.
@teeni: I found my stevia at a lady that has a small nursery at her house. I had no luck with the bigger stores. Same as the aloe. It was so hard to find, but she had that too. If you don’t find it, I wonder if I could send you a cutting of it? I could try to root one for you. I don’t know how long it would take. I’ll find out.
My Gran is a riot! You are so right. We can’t tell her how to live her life or to slow down. She enjoys doing what she does, and that is what keeps her keeping on. Any mention of getting help or being cared for just sends her into a frenzy. That time might come whether she wants it or not, but for now, until we see what is going on, we can’t determine her life for her, just try to accept her wishes. (for now)
I always heard about the sagging boobs too! LOL! I don’t have much to sag
Oh, sweet beadie! Your gran is a tough old bird, isn’t she? But that can manifest in different ways. I’m sorry she’s mad when you tried to help her with the garden. It seems she’s facing many life changes, and it’s freaky for her when her things are disturbed. There was that book, um Who Moved my Cheese?, or something…you know, like that.
I think that, on some level, she must realize she is lucky that she has you and your sisters to help her, but people can act this way when they are frightened and don’t want to show it. I know you are doing all you can; do, please, be gentle with yourself.
The business about the breathing and the swelling and the lung sounds scary.
You both remain in my circle of healing.
Muse, sorry about this taking so long. I can understand how frustrated her being with all this and people invading her space and life. I would feel the same way. It would get on my nerves too.
We ended up talking and had a good conversation about everything. Thank goodness. Thanks ((((hugs))))
Just a quick update: She didn’t go to her appointment on the 1st because when she slipped and they found the growth in her lung, she had to go for more tests and is now just waiting to hear back from that. It shouldn’t be that long of a wait.
We’ll go from there, and I have learned my lesson to step back (for now)
I won’t be on for a few days, for other reasons. Take care and thanks for everything.
I know I owe you an e-mail too! I thought you forgot when I had asked about that LOL! Still never pictured that!